Gyroscopic Stability

A statement.

2010-06-10T10:32:00.000-07:00

Why i loved Known Turf. A review, a statement.

India is no more an underdeveloped nation. No. It is rising up the highest economic echelons and competing in a world as a torch bearer of the future. As we shine the light on the many successes that we have lapped up in the last decade, we fail to pay enough consideration to the internal failures, many of which do not make it to the news as they are not titillating enough to hold a nation's attention. Some that do are soon torn up and forgotten as headlines that are past their age.

India is still a largely 'unequally developed' nation. The diversity that lends India her colour is also the cause of her shortcomings. It is this mismatch of reality that Annie Zaidi points out in her book Known Turf.

Sceptical as I am of books by contemporary Indian writers ( where words such as fuck, OMG and dialogues like - "like, you know", "like, of course" are callously alluded to literature) and bloggers turned authors, this book caught my fancy! Blame it on her bollywood-spersed chapters or a whole chapter dedicated to chai.

A mix of reportage and Annie Zaidi's story behind the articles filed for her magazine, the book is beautifully nuanced. From lighter topics of chai to going into the belly of India to understand the Chambal daakus; from stravation deaths to fractured sufism - the book unfolds in mirthy dialogues and hard stated statistics with a personal touch.

I am currently in The Netherlands, studying. I miss home. Home, however has taken on a whole new meaning. Home is no more, my apartment back in Delhi. Home is no more Delhi. Home is India. I wax eloquent about home with memories, enchanting. The idea of home that I have built up in my head has however, made me shut the doors to many rooms in it. Cobwebbed, they lie hidden somewhere in my conscience. Known Turf has forced me to find the key, wipe the dirt off the doors and take a peek into these rooms, curiously albeit with a bit of fear on what I may stumble upon. I have switched on the lights now in these rooms and hopefully will get to do something to change the way they look.

More about Annie Zaidi @ her blog - http://www.anniezaidi.com/

Rating for Known Turf - 4 stars out of 5

The waterfall

2010-05-14T10:16:00.000-07:00

She sat in a corner, curled up. The cigarette lay on the ash tray with an amber glow to it. The embers so orange, so alive; the smoke hovered over it and danced. The room was full. It was bazaaresque almost in its character. The noise had reached an intolerable crescendo an hour back but then dived into an odd melody. Bowler hats and black jackets. Short dresses and darkened eyes. The smoke lingered in the air. It hung over everyone’s head, snaking and rising into shapes portentous.

She waved at him. He came over with yet another cup of tea. This time he hesitated as he placed the cup on the table. He stole a glance as he picked up the remnants of an evening behind him. He looked at her again.

She sat, curled up still, the wall her friend. She stared into distant space. Tears welled up in her eyes. It had been days since she put ink to paper. What had happened? What had snapped that she couldn’t write anymore? What should she turn to for answers? Nothing came. Her mind was blank. Nothing helped. She sat and stared.

Then from somewhere sneaked in a beat. A riff. The sweet sound of piano. It reverberated through the floor, through her body. It brought melody to her feet. But more importantly, it brought back words to her mind. She closed her eyes and the sounds did something. She could see again. Somewhere, a waterfall that had a story to tell. She got up and left.

The blue sweater

2010-04-24T14:51:00.000-07:00

The blue sweater

etched in memory,

there it lay.

Ah! such a pretty face, so round.

She wore it with such pride.

Brown against the deep blue,

her face - seethed of

teenage turmoil and ripened views.

The blue sweater

etched in memory,

it moved.

He tore at it, made holes.

Frayed and tattered, it was worn.

He loved it though, got him the girls!

The brown against the deep blue,

his face - it was a beacon of love and smiles.

The blue sweater

etched in memory,

Grew, bigger than it ever was.

Purloined, it became lost and popular.

I picked it out, carefully one day.

It lay in an almost emptied out brown carton.

I hemmed and hawed over it.

Made it my size, made it mine.

My face as it peeked out,

Was there, just there.

I loved it too. Others never noticed though.

And so the blue sweater,

finally settled down. Blue, deep blue.

Against nothing. Rested and peaceful.

Etched in memory,

no more it lay.

Let's take a walk.

2009-10-09T15:26:00.000-07:00

She wants to be there for him. He doesn’t ever let her. It’s his problems, his life. She listens, patiently hoping that someday he will make space for her in his views, in his questions, in his answers, in his life. She waits, patiently.
Years go by, he doesn’t change. Months go by, she contemplates. She walks out one day.

Note: painting by Edvard Munch. Separation, 1900Oil on canvas125.5 x 190.5 cm

Sanity, vanity and some more...

2008-12-29T01:14:00.000-08:00

Some days back, a certain someone came over to our office to present a 'sermon' on blogging. I walked in eagerly with an open mind to hear this guy out (the fact that he's from Tamland helped in the mind wanting to patiently sit through the whole thing!). What I thought would be a flavourful session with much to argue, discuss and debate about, instead had me stepping out spitting fire!

It was all about classification of blogs to bring some sort of clarity and organising the vast universe. Being a public relations professional, this is of course important in terms of what we do. And bringing some order to this chaotic universe is indeed something of a good thing. But what really made me question the speaker's presentation was the scornful attitude towards personal blogs - those that he featured under sanity, vanity and identity - where people write because they can or because they are good or becasue it is cathartic or because they are vain and luckily good writers and hence can brag about or decry their lives..

9 August 2009 ...
PS: Again..written a long long time back (29 December to be precise!)...whilst I was still working...so much has happened since then - I have quit my job, I have seen leh, I befriended some new interesting people and lost a few in the making and now moving on to study in Maastricht, Holland...life is what you make it out to be, not unpredictable - I can say that now with confidence - sorry for letting a new post seep into this old one.. lots of thoughts are residing in my head fighting for space and volume...

Going back to this particular blog post, it doesn't merit a conclusion any more however I still hold the grudge against the man - and that shall so remain.

Writing on a gravestone

2008-12-09T23:20:00.000-08:00

Disillusioned, she stood.
Her head lowered, the pressure beating her shoulders down. She shuddered as she looked at the ground beneath, her eyes moist.

Should she have looked up at all? Should she have walked and braved the storms ahead? Should she have bothered finding her way out of her tortured life?

If she could have, she would have.

Rest in peace.
CC

A few jazz riffs...

2008-11-09T01:25:00.000-08:00

...that have kept me busy lately and have inspired playfully! :)

Some day my prince will come - Miles Davis & John Coltrane
Dat Dere - Art Blakey & The Jazz Messengers
Tune up when lights are low - Miles Davis
Tenor Conclave - John Coltrane
Samba Yantra - Chick Corea
Let's get lost - Chet Baker
Sortie - Art Blakey & The Jazz Messengers
Confirmation - Jackie Mclean
Untitled Blues Waltz - Paul Desmond & Gerry Mulligan
Last train from Overbrook - James Moody & Cedar Walton
Brilliant Corners - Thelonious Monk
April in Paris - Charlie Parker
Dancing in the dark - Bill Evans and his orchestra
Hear me talkin to ya - Cannonball Adderly

Dat Dere is now my caller tune. I think it's fabulous! The trumpet sets the pace perfectly and the saxophone springs alive soon after. Art Blakey adds the zing with his drums, effortlessly as is his style and the piece just comes together splendidly. It has this subtle softness, an air of mystery to it and climaxes now and then beautifully - it's almost like a reading Agatha Christie's Poirot. I love.

It's up on Youtube and certainly worth a hear. So if you get time, try and unwind with this fabulous piece. It does to your heart much more than what great sex can on a lazy, sunny winter afternoon!

A girl enchanted

2008-11-08T09:40:00.000-08:00

A girl enchanted,

She stands, silently looking into the veiled evening.
The purple moon floats in the sky, inspiring courage.
The street corner, dimly lit,
her face shines in it.
The eyes, so pretty and piercing; wait longingly, tenderly...
The evening mist gently glides by(serenading in a way),
as if it were singing and dancing to a tune played by the skies.

He comes riding atop his black stallion,

shining in his resplendent cloak.
He lifts his hat and tosses it in the air,
and throws open his golden locks;
Just as the sun peeks out of the clouds,
with a brilliance so shattering!
He stands. Tall.
He stands. Confident.
He stands, his walloping heart...beating.

A quiet background for his outwardly flamboyance,

She looks with a look made of all sweet accord.
(a mystical radiance, an obvious mindlessness, a necessary oblivion)
and they embrace.

Ah! desirous life,
a few more fall prey!

Note: Painting by Daniel Schwartz.
Source: http://todaysinspiration.blogspot.com/2008/03/tom-watson-continues-his-look-at.html

Happy Diwali

2008-10-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

It's noisy. My head hurts. It's smokey. My eyes burn. hmph hmph
But the sky lights up now and then in pretty colours. There's that bomb that goes off somewhere and catches you unaware. The markets are full of people, merry-making. There's sweets and food so lovely that I become a gluttonous pig. It's noisy. It's smokey. It's Diwali and I love it.

The nonsensical pot

2008-10-01T02:57:00.000-07:00

The pot... it was nonsensical. It thought itself unique. {It was nonsensical you see!} "One of a kind, rare, one in a million, so white, so pure", it uttered flattery in its name all the time and basked in the limelight it created for itself.

Then one fine day she came.She stopped. She looked. She shat in the nonsensical pot just to shut it up.

Millions - that's how many nonsensical pots there are now. They don't chatter anymore, just flush down the shit we give. How nice of 'em all!

It was meant to be

2008-09-18T11:48:00.000-07:00

Psyche: Do you think I tease?
Amor: Umm... who, me? Well, I'm too huge for you to really tease me and get away with it.
Psyche: No, I mean...do you think I am a tease; that I flirt, caper around a bit much?
Amor: You just called yourself a magnet and me a metal head. Does that count? (Pause) Actually, if I hadn't known you better, I would have thought that to be a pitiful attempt at picking me up.
Psyche: What would have been appropriate then?
Amor: How about...I travelled half way around the world to finally find myself in your arms. Keep me.
Psyche: (Throws her head back and calls him a loser)

It happened then. I smiled. He smiled back at me. I scrunched my nose at him, a little playfully, a little amorously. A dainty wink my way he threw. We walked away, as great friends.
.
.
.
cupid's arrow went astray,
and in my arms eternally he lay.

The painting used is Amor and Psyche, 1907 by Edvard Munch.

The friend speaketh...

2008-09-18T07:47:00.000-07:00

So I asked my dear friend to peek into my blog and let me know her thoughts. The truth was revealed - boring followed by a hyena like laugh poking fun at the fact that the blog's home to 4 posts in 2 years! "So much in such little time?" her retort to my screwy face looking longing at her for a positive review. (all this on gTalk - FYI)

Well, Voltaire says that the secret of being a bore is to say everything! So where do i begin and where do i draw the line?

3 posts in less than 24 hours though... must say I'm making progress.

I have been contemplating quite a few topics for this blog but either they are too political or too personal. I guess a mix of the two with a little from my phantasy world, peppered with reviews, music, food and movies would do me a world of good.

Wish me luck please.

a thought...

2008-09-18T03:23:00.000-07:00

This world is back to being a supercontinent - a socio-economic-multicultural-multilingual Pangaea held by the threads of globalisation. So are we headed towards another Jurassic period?

Too loud

2008-09-17T11:00:00.000-07:00

Self: *shrug*
1st voice in head: stop saying shrug
Self: shrug (sticks her tongue out)
2nd voice in head: shrug (forgets to stick tongue out!)

this is what happens when i don't write for too long and have none to talk to. While the first voice is always ready with that mild rebuke and gladly takes on every opportunity to chide, the second just playfully copies everything the self does! pssh to both! its 11.34 - go sleep!

Read I must...

2007-09-12T09:56:00.000-07:00

I have a way of reading books......that is of reading at least 3 simultaneously..hate it but will continue doing it! (It's called habit!)

So a while back i picked up 3 -
1. My Name is Red - Orhan Pamuk
2. The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
3. Innocent Eréndira and other Short Stories - Gabriel García Márquez

Supposedly one of his best, My Name is Red didn't do much for me - though the narrative goes back and forth (something I always like!) and is interestingly styled with first- person perspectives, somewhere the plot just isn't convincing enough. I picked it up with much expectations but alas.. i give it 3 stars out of 5 - purely for the style!

It is always easy to appeal to the sadist in us all. That's where Hosseini socres!
He has sketched the characters beautifully, each one of them but he hasn't managed to sustain them through the book. The plot meanders into futile tales, picks up a bit and then fizzles out all together. 2 out of 5

Márquez is one of my favourite people! But this book was too dark for my taste. I couldn't even bring myself to finishing it. :(

...but I shall feed on dreams of hope as I start my tryst with the next 3 -
1. The Tin Drum - Günter Grass - splendid narrative so far, very promising...
2. The Siege of Isfahan - Jean Christophe Rufin - hmm...
3. Self-Realisation - B V Narasimha Swami - about the life and teachings of Ramana Maharishi. Incomparable!

Looking forward to -
The Snow or The White Castle(I want to give Orhan Pamuk another go),The Nose(1836, short story by Nikolai Gogol, the basis for an opera by Dmitri Shostakovich), The Squabble by Gogol again, The Ground Beneath her Feet by Rushdie, White Mughals by William Dalrymple... quite a few aye?!?!?

i spy with my eye...

2007-09-12T09:50:00.000-07:00

"The night walked down the sky with the moon in her hand."

Frederic Lawrence Knowles

Mango is My favourite Fruit.

2006-11-16T11:29:00.000-08:00

THUMP THUMP....THUD THUD...THUMP THUMP THUMP ...It was as if God was gifted a new set of drums and a couple of Bose Speakers...Oh! how cacophonous it was as the calm azure sky rained mangoes in plenitude...yes mangoes! of all colours as well...orange, yellow, red, green ...even blue and black( poor things...they had to turn blue and black...thanks to the cement walls, the steel, the glass, the wood, the human head blah blah blah)But people..be it the ones walkin on streets, those looking out their windows, few reading a book, some copulating in a corner....none ...absolutely none gave a diddly-do! Some pulled out their umbrellas (almost all were pink), one or two turned their gaze towards the sky with pulp in their eye but most of them just let it be...let the mangoes fall...let them hit the brick walls and the pavements...how callous of them all!

PS: painting was found @www.claribelsantiago.com/mangoes.html
(MANGOES AL ATARDECER)
Close-up of brightly colored mangoes acrylic on canvas. Part of the Remembranzas Collection.

PS: God should switch to noise-cancellation Sennheiser headphones!!! ya ya.. i'm madly obsessed with Sennheiser...

Guilty of Blogicide

2006-11-16T05:27:00.000-08:00

Yes. It is true. I am guilty of having commited blogicide...not once but many times...10 at least. I created them, published them and then deleted them...cut down in their infancy. I often wonder why ...and these are few answers that found their way to my head...

Reason 1 - I enjoy reading so much that i find writing pointless. (charming way to say i dont write all that well...)

Reason 2 - zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. (translates... pretending to be asleep. mostly slothful)

Reason 3 - 2 reasons are never enough for anything. (duh!)

Reason 4 - Fear of being read. (Irony: Language device in which the real intent is concealed or contradicted by the literal meaning of words or a situation.)

If you are able to reach this blog still, then it means that this jabberwocky has finally spoken!!!